I've decided to post this entry both here and on my hellokrisxo account. hellokrisxo.deviantart.com
. I want everyone to know what's been going on in my life, and maybe so reasoning for why I've been gone for so long.
I've always made really good friends here on dA, and most of them, even though online, have seemed even closer and more caring that those that I've had that weren't a distance away and behind a computer screen.
After college, I pretty much had nothing to do. There were no graphic design jobs available in the area, even though when I was actually taking the classes, there was opportunity and promise everywhere. My hometown was hit pretty hard economy wise. People were out of jobs. Both of my parents lost theirs for a while, and it just wasn't easy at all. Needless to say I went through a depression, and I didn't have internet access, save for my phone, which back then, I didn't have a smart phone, and had no real way of accessing my dA.
I understand that for some people, they don't have to worry about money, or losing internet access, or anything like that, and I understand completely if that seems like a sorry excuse, but a lot of stuff was going on in my life then and it was a really hard time for my family. I dated a guy for a little bit, and then he turned out to be a real jerk. I went through another depression because of all the stuff he put me through. I pushed myself further into my theater endeavors, and before long, a guy that I'd liked for a while ended up messaging me on facebook and told me he'd ended it with who he was seeing and later actually revealed to me that he and I had been through the same exact experience with people. And experience you wouldn't even truly call a "relationship" because it was pretty much being with someone so you wouldn't be the only single one in your group of friends.
I'm sure that majority of people could say that in their whole dating experience, they've met someone who just drained them, emotionally (or even physically) abused them, and did nothing but bring them down.
Before long, he and I were together and have been for over two years now. When we'd been together for about a year and a few months, my parents ended up splitting up. I should have seen it coming. It's like there was a lot of friction and eventually it just festered and my mom left. I still love both my parents dearly, but it was at that time that my boyfriend asked me to spend a couple days with him...and those couple days turned into living with him. My depression vanished. My favorite uncle passed away a few months later and I was devastated. All of this stuff had happened so close together, that as soon as I'd processed and worked through one thing, I had to face another.
Needless to say, during all of this, my art took a seat on the backburner. But since he and I have been together, I've been getting more and more into it. I've finally settled back into the kawaii scene, my niche. And for once in a long time...a very long time, I'm happy.